Disbelief...that was the word to describe how I felt last Saturday as I stared down at the faint line that appeared on the Dollar Tree pregnancy test I took. I immediately asked my husband to go to the store to pick up a digital. I wasn't going to believe it until I saw one word on the EPT digital test. Shock...that was the word to describe how I felt after reading "pregnant" on the digital test later that afternoon. Shock because I took a test on Thursday and got a BFN, so I was almost positive it would be negative again on Saturday. It was not to be!
We are absolutely thrilled about the prospect of another baby! However, given my history, there is always that fear of the unknown and hoping and praying that nothing goes wrong. I just have to give it to God and hope His will is for me to carry this baby full term and healthy. That will be my constant prayer, as it was when I carried DD.
I really want to be able to share this news with the stickies, as I won't share it with friends and co-workers I know IRL until the second trimester. It kills me not to be able to tell the stickies! I just need to wait for the right time (most likely also second trimester- that will be so hard!) until I am able to tell one of the stickies I know IRL.
My first beta was today and boy was it like pulling teeth for the doctor's office to #1 call me back and #2 allow me to have a beta before the first appt and #3 give authorization to insurance for me to pick up the progesterone that I need! The progesterone was prescribed back in January and I have to pay out of pocket until the office decides to give the insurance company the okay. I am fed up with this office already! It is NOTHING like being with Dr. Robin at New Hope. That office cares about your success and are just as happy as you are, knowing how anxious you are and are ready to help give you peace of mind. The office I'm with now acts like they could care less, which angers me!
I am having zero symptoms at this point, besides tiredness, which is kind of nerve wracking.
First consultation appointment is tomorrow, where they will schedule the first u/s. I should *hopefully* find out the results from the beta tomorrow and then do a repeat on Friday.
Praying for another healthy, sticky, full term baby to make DD a big sister!
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